Profound realization today.

I am ready. I'm so totally ready to be a parent. J and I were sitting in Panera having lunch after a day of returns/exchanges to BuyBuy Baby and Target, and I was thinking about the fact that we are going to have a real, genuine, flesh and bones BABY next month. And I wasn't scared. It just hit me all of a sudden, like this just feels totally right.

Now I know no one is ever fully ready, and there will be moments when we lose our ever loving minds after the baby comes. And on the flip side I don't mean to sound like I'm just now sure about this getting pregnant thing. I was sure about it all ahead of time, pinky swear. But something just hit me today that this all just feels so right, like this is what we are supposed to be doing at this point in our lives. And it feels good.

I mentioned it to J, and he kind of smiled. I asked what he was thinking, and he said 'well, I don't really know. It's one of those big things in life, like getting married, and buying a house, where I feel like it should be some huge scary thing. But I didn't feel that way about either of those, and I don't think about I do about this either.'

I smiled back, and said, 'well I think if you can look back on such major life events and have that reaction, it probably means you did the right thing.'

And so we are :-)