Profound realization today.

I am ready. I'm so totally ready to be a parent. J and I were sitting in Panera having lunch after a day of returns/exchanges to BuyBuy Baby and Target, and I was thinking about the fact that we are going to have a real, genuine, flesh and bones BABY next month. And I wasn't scared. It just hit me all of a sudden, like this just feels totally right.

Now I know no one is ever fully ready, and there will be moments when we lose our ever loving minds after the baby comes. And on the flip side I don't mean to sound like I'm just now sure about this getting pregnant thing. I was sure about it all ahead of time, pinky swear. But something just hit me today that this all just feels so right, like this is what we are supposed to be doing at this point in our lives. And it feels good.

I mentioned it to J, and he kind of smiled. I asked what he was thinking, and he said 'well, I don't really know. It's one of those big things in life, like getting married, and buying a house, where I feel like it should be some huge scary thing. But I didn't feel that way about either of those, and I don't think about I do about this either.'

I smiled back, and said, 'well I think if you can look back on such major life events and have that reaction, it probably means you did the right thing.'

And so we are :-)

I've been thinking...

that perhaps a change is in order. I'm getting sick of the name of my blog being such a mouthful. And kind of a dumb mouthful at that. I thought of it at 11pm one night last spring when I decided that it was time for me to start rambling to the interwebs. At the time I figured I would change it in a couple of days when inspiration struck. But it never did. And so here we are almost a year later and my blog name is still... lame.

But I still can't really think of anything else. It would be nice to keep 'awesome' part of it, since it's, you know, my word. All I can think of is awesomesauce.

So my lovely readers, what do you think? Awesomesauce? Something without awesome in it at all? If it ain't broke, don't fix it? Leave a comment and let me know, if you would be so kind :-)