So.

I haven't written. In forever. I totally missed the 8 week update last week, and figured I would just do a 2 month update this week instead.

Then Sunday happened.

A very dear friend of mine (S) went into labor at 23 weeks, and her perfect son Matthew Finley was born. He lived for a few short hours, and passed away Sunday evening. He joins his sister Katie Jane, who was also born too soon just over a year ago.

Since then, I have wanted to blog about it, and I definitely haven't wanted to post a cheery positive post about Jamie until I do. But I just can't find the words. I am feeling so many things about this, mainly anger that such an amazing human being can have such a tragedy happen to her twice. I won't even use the word unfair, that's laughable. Truly, it is so far beyond fucked up, let alone unfair. My heart hurts for S and her husband, and the rest of their family. Beyond that, I can't find the words to express how I feel. I think you get the idea though.

I absolutely HATE that I can type this next sentence. But, I know that S is incredibly strong, truly one of the most amazing people I know, and she will get through this. I HATE that I can say that I know it because she has done it before. HATE. But she has, and will again. So, please keep them in your thoughts (and prayers, if you swing that way). Because while I know she will get through it, I also know that she will take all the love and support she can get to help her through.

I love you so very much, S.